Is it normal that I get mad at my girlfriend for drinking?

You are her boyfriend, not the boss of her and drinking with her friends at their house is not your concern. Be a designated driver for her, but lose the control-freakery.

, if you keep bitching about little stuff like this she will eventually feel like she cannot do anything and she is losing her freedom, this is deadly for any relationship. why don't you go out drinking together sometime with some of your common friends, you can see her in action and relate a bit better.

Also, if you you keep this up at one point she will start sneaking around if she really feels like drinking, and thats an even worse situation!

Not normal. You're her boyfriend, not her father. And big deal if she drinks with her friends, plenty of people do. If you don't trust her, that's your own problem for *you* to work out, not burden her with.

i talked to her about it and she said its up to me to go through that stress or not and also told me i have nothing to worry about. 

100%, and your instinct tells you she will. And it's something you have a problem with her doing, so you should probably end it.When you get drunk and you're surrounded by peer pressure, it is a fact you do things you wouldn't normally do. Why should cheating be any different? Your inhibitions are lowered anyway. If I was you I'd just end it.

OH DEAR !!! SOME ONE ENTER MY HEAD AND TAKE OUT THIS CONTROL FREAKERY....

I CAN ENd IT, BUT THAT WOULD MEAN I AM DETACEHD FROM HER. AND YEAH I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN I GET DETACEHD. I FORGET TO GIVE A SINGLE FUCK ABOUT ANYTHING.

BUT I AM NOT COMFORTABLE...

I AM JUST NOT...SHOULD HAVE TALKED TO ME. SHOULD HAVE TOLD ME BEFORE DOING IT. AND YOU SHOULDNT REPEAT ON AND ON AND ON>..THAT IT IS YOUR LIFE AND ITS YOUR CHOICE..

I KNOW THAT VERY WELL...

Disgust....apt forward for my feeling for her

Is that selfish lil self obsessed bitch someone i wanna be with ?? Nope.

Peace at last !!!///

this particular speck in the time track can be termed as peaceful. heartbeat levels down to normal. the forehead frowns are barely surfacing. things are good.

nothing changed. nothing happened.
its just a change of mood. A change in perception.

Talking to random people, trying to be funny, and keeping everything light hearted MAKES ME HAPPY.
Let the good times roll.. 

London bridge is falling down.

Humiliating and Heart –breaking.

I knew we had problems. I did not know we had fundamental problems. The basic principles of relationships have been violated.

In just one conversation, all the intimacy, all the happiness and all the dreams seem fake. In just one conversation, I went from being happily committed to being in love but single again.

Shouldnot have loved someone so much in the first place.

“You are doing the wrong thing”

“No I am not. This time let me do it my way”

“I just don’t want you doing something stupid”

“What you did in the past two relationships were stupid. This time I am going to do it the right way. “

“You know you cannot do it the right way. What is the right way even”

“I am not gonna lie. I am not going to play with emotions.”

“So you are actually gonna love her ?”

“I think I already do “

“You will probably end up getting hurt”

“Doesn’t matter. I am prepared this time”

NO FUCK NO THAT WAS BULLSHIT. I KID YOU NOT. I WASN’T PREPARED FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS.

I have played numerous worst case scenario tapes in my head. This wasn’t one of them. I thought of pregnancy by someone else, I thought of murder, I thought of lesbianism, I thought of her cheating on me, I thought of mostly everything. BUT NOT THIS. NOT “I don’t want to go back (to you)” “I am happy here (without you)” and “I don’t need love”

Definitely not for this.

I am sad. Not for the first time. But this is not the regular sadness. For the first time, I feel like broken hearted. Dil toda tune.

For the first time I feel so unprepared in my life. What if ?? What if “I am going to try” becomes “I have given up” tomorrow ? What if “I wont break up this semester” becomes “I don’t see a point of this tomorrow” ? what if “you are my knight in the shining armor” becomes “I have never been with someone more ridiculous than you” ?

I know I am not prepared for this.

7 years I have tried everything to hide my sentimental side. To hide the crybaby inside me. To hide the sensitivity. But something like this, will turn my life upside down.

I admit I haven’t been perfect. But I have been more than a better bf than any girl could ask for. EVER. And this is knowing the kind of things we went through.

Pravi, I took all your crap for the summer without a question. You have no idea how much have to say back to that. All coz at somepoint I realized this is gonna be a shaky semester, and I shudnt be adding more stresspoints.

But you crossed the limits. You exceeded all expectations. You decided to block me out of your life. I became the boyfriend who gets an “aaaarghhh” out of you instead of a “yay”.

And its sad. IT is sad. I AM BREAKING DOWN. I AM SCARED. I AM SCARED TO HELL.

I think for the first time in ages, I need someone to just talk to. I am alone. I am hated. I am tired.

One month is all it took to flush me out of your life. And here I have been fighting with Sho that once we get full time jobs we will be perfectly fine in a long distance for sometime before one of us makes the switch. BULLSHIT I WAS WRONG.

YOU WILL BRAEK MY HEART LIKE A BITCH ONE DAY.

WHAT  HAPPENED THE FIRST TIME YOU WERE IN A RELATIONSHIP AND YOU CAME TO COLLEGE ??

You broke up within the first month.

“SAME THING BITCH SAME THING. IF YOU CANT UNDERSTAND WHY THIS IS HAPPENING, GO LOOK BACK AT THAT. IT’S THE SAME THING

YOU CANNOT COMMIT TO ANYONE. YOU CANNOT LOVE ANYONE. YOU CANNOT BELONG TO SOMEONE>”

“Its not the same thing. I have no idea why not. But I am not doing a self saddening thing here. I don’t have to accept it.”

“Compare and tell me”

“I wont compare. I know what you are upto. The last thing this relationship needs is me turning against her”

“Better do it now. That gives u a chance to break off. You can walk away without getting hurt. It will be all her fault”

“This is not like that. I want to be with her. I am prepared for her hurt. I am never walking away until she asks me to. I am not trying to pin anything on her.”

“all this thing has for you is hurt”

“I have trusted her twice. She broke my trust twice. I got hurt but I am still fine. I am going to trust her again”

“And she is going to break it again”

“she wont. Even if she does, I cant end it without trying my best to save it”

“She is taking advantage of you. She is a cold hearted bitch who never learnt how to love”

“She gets unlimited tries. I love her. That should be enough “

“But she doesn’t love you. Sooner or later she is gonna end it. Either to go with someone else, or just to hurt you.”

“SHE WILL HAVE TO LOVE ME ASSHOLE. SHE WILL HAVE TO. SHE WILL. I TRUST MY BABY. “

“empty words. Do you see how helpless you are ? theres nothing u can do about it.”

“I can. I can try not being a dick and turning against her. This relationship will be handled my way, not yours. I haven’t lost all hope in love yet.”

a relationship that just keeps on getting better

Everyone come, take a piece of me, play with it  like dough, and give it back to me after u have had your share of fun.

"dude you made the wrong choice :
"i wish u actually knew her. then you wouldnt have"
"what you think she is. she is not, thats just what you want her to be"
"no no..dont get me wrong here. i am sure"

But was i really ?? actually, am i really ??

Lets think about it,

summer me and pravi got together, it could have easily happend, coz pravi was lonely and insecure then. Came of a bad relationship. Was hurt. I hadnt screwed up in her life yet. Was the only guy left out of the 5-6 candidates who took their turns first. Plus i kind of feel like she just said yes, thinking its gonna be fun.

Fall semester, like she says was miserable for her. She was like a lamb and all. And obviously i had all those issues with pravi not being a good gf.

Spring semester. She tells me it was better. But that can be mistaken, because she is using fall and summer as a frame of reference. So relatively she was better off, but on the absolute scale she wasnt really happy.

summer. Acc, to her was the worst time of her life, even worse than freshman year.

so all in all, it can be very possible that pravi never actually loved me. She actually never really felt a part of this relationship. She was never into it. But i think once she realised that she never was in it, she tried, and obviously things didnt work out.

Why am i so surprised that she doesnt miss me right now ? why am i shocked that she can be perfectly happy in her life without me ?
When if i think about it, she was never into me.

I was a fool who didnt read the situation. I was just relieved and massively happy that she was finally with me. I never realised that she might not have wanted to.
That would explain all the distance that she is comfortable with right now.

"Vikram you were good as a friend, not as a bf" ."i am not comfortable with you that close"
All the lies, all the things that she hid, all the texts sent behind my back,
creating a new number just to text anuraag.......that explains everything.


now i am sorry, dear mr. heart, that i didnt take care of it. you see i ended up handing you over to her, and she had no idea what to do with you coz she never really wanted it. So she ended up hurting it.

LIFE FUCKING SUCKS.
IT SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS....what on earth was i thinking when i thought she is into me ??
she clearly isnt.......a small town guy with zero personality a huge ego and a hot temper...WHAT THE FUCK IS THERE TO LIKE ???

FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE, I TOOK A CHANCE WITH HURT AND BITCH WAS I HURT !!!

you see you can never let your guard down. NEVER. DONT DO THAT SHIT AGAIN IF IT IS POSSIBLE.

HERES WHAT YOU ARE GONNA DO :
1) try nd be a decent bf for as long as she needs to decide she finally needs to break it.
2) dont do drama when she ends it with you.
3) go to your own little corner and cry like a bitch. HURT YOURSELF. HURT YOURSELF FOR LETTING YOURSELF DOWN.
4) vow on the name of God, never ever to love again. Never ever to consider feelings again.

She will end it soon. I have nothing to offer to her. No hope of a better life, no money , no class, no standard nothing. THE ONLY THING I HAD WAS BUCKET LOADS OF LOVE, AND MISSY THINKS "maybe i dont need it"...HOW CUTE PRAVI !!!

I cant believe this is what its headed into. Cant believe i am the one who is getting dumped. Cant go through that a third time now. wanted to be a hero and save her life, but as fate wud have it i am the one drowning.

I have never loved someone more, nor will i ever allow myself to.

I am gonna be that sad person, who walks up on the street into a fruit shop, runs into pravi and her husband, with their baby in a pram,. I will smile awkwardly. Run away from the scene and go kill some humans coz i wud be mad and sad and frustrated with life. The worst thing is i am picturing shyaam, shoumo and nimit as the husbands right now. Once you give a face to your imaginations, the thing becomes more worse.


Pravi, this is SO SO SO SO UNFAIR.

i wish i was that guy who felt love only when his penis was inside you. Things wudd have been so much simpler. No hurt nothing. Just wud have had to find a new pussy to bang on.

BUT NO THIS SHIT I COMPLICATED. and the worst part is IT IS OUT OF MY HANDS.

every heard of a colossal disaster...that is what it is like right now...

a relationship that is determined to come crumbling down in the blink of an eye.

where are things going wrong ? why is there so much of a mis-communication ?

we hardly talk. we barely talk. we dont talk.
but it is disheartening. the amount of mis-communication existing between us. it is frustrating, both for u and me.

we arent even doing well in a namesake relationship. you have become a non-gf. even for the few seconds we talk, you dont seem like a girlfriend. you dont even pretend to be one. we have lost connection. I have lost connection. I can no longer visualize you.

i want you back. i want to be happy with you. i want you to like me.

is it that tough ??

pravi, my life is pathetic right now. I dont have anyone to talk to. My family is going through really tough times. My academics arent at their best. .... the only time i am actually happy is when i think about the good times we had, which is immediately followed by a phase of immense sadness when i thnk of whether u feel the same way too.

but you probably dont. i dont figure in your thoughts. i dont figure in your decisons. i am just someone who stops you from doing things. who sucks the happiness out of thngs.

listen this entire beer thing, is alarming to me.

i am not comfortable with the fact that you drank alcohol. i am not comfortable with the fact that you regret not doing weed.
i am sorry but i have to express it. it disappoints me that u think like that. WHAT THE FUCK HAVE YOU BECOME ???