I wish i had head bursting skills. The power to blow up someones head whenever they act retarded. Socialising is sucha tough thing to do, when everyone you meet is a fucking retard.
Friday, September 20, 2013
madam fuck ho gaya
sirisha and me had a fight types...
she is such a stupid female
she started talking about "guys like me" and girls who are "cheap types" and all
and i got defensive
and i was trying to defend my philosophy about life
and she just said...that she doesnt accept and all etc etc...
so i tried having this huge conversation with her about how one shud learn to accept others....
but of course that was a failure
nd on top of that she started insulting me..
then i started making fun of her and all
so i said "cheap sa shakal hai tera"
THAT DUMBASS WITH HER 2nd GRADE HINDI DID NOT UNDERSTAND THE JOKE
and she thought i was calling her cheap
and she gave this huge speech to me..
and then she started tearing up...
and then she got up and left..
and then she sent me messages on whatsapp...saying "i am sorry i ever got to know you, never talk to me again or i will block you. bye"
etc etc
BASICALLY POINT BEING
I AM INVOLVED IN A LOT OF DRAMA
so she then said
"please dont talk to me again..."
and i never responded
How IS THIs NOT STUPID SAREEN ???
why will anyone take such a thing to such an extreme level
she literally wants to break off all contacts because i said "cheap sa shakal hai tera"
in what possible realisitic three dimensional world can such a thing happen
I BLAME IT ALL ON HER PERIODS
IT WAASNT MY FAULT AT ALL
of all the things i have made fun of her....this was prolly the least harmful one
WHAT THE FUCK
I JUST GOT LECTURED BY A GIRL AT WORK ON HOW TO BEHAVE AND MANNERS AND SHIT
the same girl who said she was in a weird position because of me
WHY THE FUCK DOES THIS KIND OF SHIT HAPPEN TO ME
i swear to god dude
i dont want to socialise anymore
every other person i meet is a complete dumbfuck
like i just dont want to talk to people anymore
i want to live a life of doing my work, browsing imgur, watching movies, reading funny jokes, watching comedy shows, talking to you and going to sleep
thats all i want to do in my life
i am done trying to talk to people
all of them are a bunch of fucking retards...
god knows why god even makes such people
god knows why i have to meet such people
I dont think people give humor the credit it deserves.
You could show me the most destitute, broken down person on this planet.
But if i could make them laugh, or even smile.
Then, only for a moment, if the could be unconditionally happy.
I cant help but think that this resilience of spirit that this humor evokes is humanity's most defining characteristic; the purest form of human emotion; the unbridled demonstration of what it means to be human.
To me, humor is beautiful.
Anyways, that's why i drew a dick on the wall
You could show me the most destitute, broken down person on this planet.
But if i could make them laugh, or even smile.
Then, only for a moment, if the could be unconditionally happy.
I cant help but think that this resilience of spirit that this humor evokes is humanity's most defining characteristic; the purest form of human emotion; the unbridled demonstration of what it means to be human.
To me, humor is beautiful.
Anyways, that's why i drew a dick on the wall
Thursday, September 19, 2013
I like talking to a girl when there are no hidden agendas. There is no strategy, gameplan etc etc.
I just want an honest, heart to heart conversation where two random people that Fate has put together can just communicate thoughts, feelings and expressions without getting caught up on all the rights and wrongs and the dos and donts that society has put around us.
I want to know a person. I want to understand how they think, why they think how they think. The set of experiences they have gone through. All these are so important in trying to put your life, as a whole, into perspective.
It opens up a whole new world tbh.
When Pravi told her , I want to break up into particles and mix in the air.
When shyamali told about her, rape situation when she was 10
When Janani explained that awkward date with the guy who kept talking about phones
When Vasundhara talked about her expectation from guys.
When Priya talked about her mess with Rahul
When Akansha talked about her emptiness after Chirag
When Sho showed his insecurity about himself.
All these things helped me to understand people so much better
So much open mindedness is instilled once you just care to listen attentively to what someone else is saying.
every human has a story. Every girl has thoughts she has never expressed before.
Every single occurrence of an experience has a whole back story attached to it that needs to be expressed and shared.
My fantasy is to collect any such story in its most brutal, honest baseless form. Just to make sure that the story is untainted, untouched.
I just want an honest, heart to heart conversation where two random people that Fate has put together can just communicate thoughts, feelings and expressions without getting caught up on all the rights and wrongs and the dos and donts that society has put around us.
I want to know a person. I want to understand how they think, why they think how they think. The set of experiences they have gone through. All these are so important in trying to put your life, as a whole, into perspective.
It opens up a whole new world tbh.
When Pravi told her , I want to break up into particles and mix in the air.
When shyamali told about her, rape situation when she was 10
When Janani explained that awkward date with the guy who kept talking about phones
When Vasundhara talked about her expectation from guys.
When Priya talked about her mess with Rahul
When Akansha talked about her emptiness after Chirag
When Sho showed his insecurity about himself.
All these things helped me to understand people so much better
So much open mindedness is instilled once you just care to listen attentively to what someone else is saying.
every human has a story. Every girl has thoughts she has never expressed before.
Every single occurrence of an experience has a whole back story attached to it that needs to be expressed and shared.
My fantasy is to collect any such story in its most brutal, honest baseless form. Just to make sure that the story is untainted, untouched.
So you know when the inquisitive inner self starts having those pangs, the needs to make a quintessential list of things the delirious mind needs to do right now, that's when all lines in life inter-tangle withing themselves and sort of form this weird amalgamation of lifestyles.
Always be clear about which personality you want to play, which path of lies you want to share.
The problem with Pravi and Angela was that they stayed too long. They got to know too much.
But with people who are just going to be around for a while, make sure that you stay focused. When you have picked up a character to enact, you don't go back. Those are just the rules
I have had minor fuck ups so far. But just to be on the safe side, i should start being more careful.
Always be clear about which personality you want to play, which path of lies you want to share.
The problem with Pravi and Angela was that they stayed too long. They got to know too much.
But with people who are just going to be around for a while, make sure that you stay focused. When you have picked up a character to enact, you don't go back. Those are just the rules
I have had minor fuck ups so far. But just to be on the safe side, i should start being more careful.
It is surprising how people change their perspective.
"this is a weird stage of my life" to " You are kamina"
Sometimes, i am proud of how good i am at lying. It is so refreshing to constantly remind oneself how judgmental people really are.
We laugh, we cry, we dream , we talk, we lie, we hide, we cheat, we shy. And yet we judge others for mistake we ourselves could have made. We judge others for fabrication. We judge others for honesty. we judge others for their mishaps, their luck, their stories, their lives.
Going from "OMG you are such a nice guy, ofc u will get a girl" to "OMG stop dating girls. get yourself checked" takes a matter of seconds. The human memory is super efficient at deleting all existing databases and replacing it with a whole new made up personality that will now be perceived in a whole different light.
Its funny how the most honest, innocent people have the toughest time in accepting someones reality.
Everyone loves the outcast, as long as the outcast is doing everything that is not affecting you.
"this is a weird stage of my life" to " You are kamina"
Sometimes, i am proud of how good i am at lying. It is so refreshing to constantly remind oneself how judgmental people really are.
We laugh, we cry, we dream , we talk, we lie, we hide, we cheat, we shy. And yet we judge others for mistake we ourselves could have made. We judge others for fabrication. We judge others for honesty. we judge others for their mishaps, their luck, their stories, their lives.
Going from "OMG you are such a nice guy, ofc u will get a girl" to "OMG stop dating girls. get yourself checked" takes a matter of seconds. The human memory is super efficient at deleting all existing databases and replacing it with a whole new made up personality that will now be perceived in a whole different light.
Its funny how the most honest, innocent people have the toughest time in accepting someones reality.
Everyone loves the outcast, as long as the outcast is doing everything that is not affecting you.
Rough, Tough and Ready to bluff....
If i had to write a story about my life so far, i am going to run out of patience before i even manage to describe half of it, because my life is not a sum total of ell the events that have happened. It is a sum total of all the realistic imaginations that my mind has directed over a period of time with a few dashes of actuality. The pretentious surrounding that i have enveloped myself is, is truly nothing short of Pan's Labyrinth.
'So when i was a boy, i decided to become weird."
"Every man is an island"
"I want to experience more and restrict less"
Every single day that i do not get goosebumps, do not get excited, do not believe a story, do not get hurt or do not feel love, is a day gone to waste.
I was born to Gods, I was raised by Gods. I shall live like a God.
Dear Dr Browser,
At this point i want to clarify to you, that i still have not lost it. That inevitable splurge of dementia still has not taken over. I am in my zone, and i am waiting, unrestrained.
If i try to explain you my philosophy of life, it comes down to a very simple, selfish narcissistic phrase, "Do what you want"
I want to rise above all the chain link fences and locks that my ever-so-protective society has cast around me. I want to rise above stereotypes. I want to rise above norms.
Feeling alive is an art. Being alive is a burden bestowed upon us, because we were made in His Light and He shall forever protect us. But in this moment, of Neapolitan cosmo-culture, i want to reign supreme over my heart, my choices.
The amount of satisfaction i get when i receive all the perplexed looks right after , and sometimes during, my elaborately explained and intricately fabricated life -story, is truly nonperishable. This sense of self-actualization that i have delivered myself is a theory lost upon the benign creatures who still plunge themselves in the argument of right and wrong.
I wish i could set you free. i wish i could deliver you from restraints. i sincerely hope you push yourself back to a macroscopic level. But for the moment i have shown you the path. I have shown you the result. I have shown you the need and the devils of it.
Rest, my dear, is upto you.
If i had to write a story about my life so far, i am going to run out of patience before i even manage to describe half of it, because my life is not a sum total of ell the events that have happened. It is a sum total of all the realistic imaginations that my mind has directed over a period of time with a few dashes of actuality. The pretentious surrounding that i have enveloped myself is, is truly nothing short of Pan's Labyrinth.
'So when i was a boy, i decided to become weird."
"Every man is an island"
"I want to experience more and restrict less"
Every single day that i do not get goosebumps, do not get excited, do not believe a story, do not get hurt or do not feel love, is a day gone to waste.
I was born to Gods, I was raised by Gods. I shall live like a God.
Dear Dr Browser,
At this point i want to clarify to you, that i still have not lost it. That inevitable splurge of dementia still has not taken over. I am in my zone, and i am waiting, unrestrained.
If i try to explain you my philosophy of life, it comes down to a very simple, selfish narcissistic phrase, "Do what you want"
I want to rise above all the chain link fences and locks that my ever-so-protective society has cast around me. I want to rise above stereotypes. I want to rise above norms.
Feeling alive is an art. Being alive is a burden bestowed upon us, because we were made in His Light and He shall forever protect us. But in this moment, of Neapolitan cosmo-culture, i want to reign supreme over my heart, my choices.
The amount of satisfaction i get when i receive all the perplexed looks right after , and sometimes during, my elaborately explained and intricately fabricated life -story, is truly nonperishable. This sense of self-actualization that i have delivered myself is a theory lost upon the benign creatures who still plunge themselves in the argument of right and wrong.
I wish i could set you free. i wish i could deliver you from restraints. i sincerely hope you push yourself back to a macroscopic level. But for the moment i have shown you the path. I have shown you the result. I have shown you the need and the devils of it.
Rest, my dear, is upto you.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Oh dear Sirisha,what did you do ??
i came here to escape drama not start a new fire in one day.
Dear Fucking browser,
God has a creepy sense of humor. I am the sims player who is constantly handled. Kinda like it tbh.. Until i am completely burnt out. But so far so good. God i hate that phrase. the amount of deception in that sentence is tremendous.
So fuck all that.
i came here to escape drama not start a new fire in one day.
Dear Fucking browser,
God has a creepy sense of humor. I am the sims player who is constantly handled. Kinda like it tbh.. Until i am completely burnt out. But so far so good. God i hate that phrase. the amount of deception in that sentence is tremendous.
So fuck all that.
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