09/23...

another black day for fucks sake....summer was the worst thing apparently....u knw on days like this...i lose motivation...i lose all my sincerity in this relationship...these kinda days remind me why i shud have never opened up..why i shud have stayed passive...we brought the drama, i didnt...we created that shithole,i didnt....we created the problems,i didnt....we had the issues, i didnt.

but dnt get sad, this relationship is not in ur hands. my part of the job is being patient. and i will do that.

remember the time, when that fatass had said, your parents are ashamed of u...and i had said..thanks for understanding my parents so well...its a similar case...dont let it affect u...be in your zone..u have been through worse things before....

i mean at some point i am pretty sure i do realize that no one will be here forever. everyone leaves, everyone will get tired of me...yes i did get goosebumps when she said that....but that just made me realise...its not us living..u have ur own life..i have my own..at some point we tend to overlap a bit...

this lorraine thing might have been the best choice in ur life....but that decison of urs is the worst choice u cud have made in my life...

now u will come back al strong and uptight...lol...things are gonna change...everything changes...

if all that u said was true, this might as well be the beginning of the ending.