Lord vs God
two such separate entities. Lord is like so religious. God is spiritual. Lord binds me to rituals. God sets me free. I am afraid of the Lord. God gives me strength. Lord has a name. God just has a sense.
I am spiritual, not religious.
I am thankful to God for who i am today. I am thankful to myself for who i am today. I feel wonderful tonight. I am thankful for being different. I am thankful that i am strong. I am thankful God, that you made me so strong that i am not afraid of defeat or failures. I am thankful for making me so strong that i am not afraid to be alone. I am thankful for making me intelligent so i dont lose out. I am thankful for the parents i was delivered to. I am thankful for the sister i have. I owe everything about me to them. Every single thing about me has been in some way affected by them. I applaud my mom who in her own way gave me the sense of individuality that i dont see in anyone else. I respect my sister for not making me have to search anywhere else for an example or a source of motivation. And last, i am in awe of my father. If there is ever a man that i can ever respect it is him. Remember that Stanford essay, write about someone who has influenced you. I wrote about you. I made you review it. And even though you and i we both knew it was a horrible essay, i would write the same single essay every single time.
Dont get me wrong, you guys annoy me, but i couldnt be more thankful for having people like you in my life. You are all pillars of strength. its hard rock steel core that you guys have.
I thank you God for the friends that you have given me. I thank you for making them dicks. I couldnt have asked for better friends. They give me exactly what i need. A fire to be defiant, a need to be strong. I dont need a shoulder to cry on, nor somebody to pour out to. But i need somebody to make me understand what i am striving for. Someone who constantly reminds who i am. My friends are perfect.
I thank you God for my girlfriend. She is a wonderful woman. A freak of nature. Who enjoys taking that knife and non chalantly reaching my guts from my throat just for her. The sort of woman who stifles you, keeps you on your toes, and will remind you, every single moment, why you chose to be with her. With my hands on my heart, and with no sense of social or personal obligation to anyone, i , with my own free will, am proud to have her in my life. Its luck that i hit jackpot.
God you have been there with me at every single step. My relationship with you has been very deep from the begining. You keep my grounded. You create all my obstacles, and you give me the strength to fight them. My brain wasnt smart enuf to fight them in the begining, but it is getting better. I thank you for putting me through whatever you have put me through. You have been a friend, my darkest enemy, my guide and my tormentor. You made me , and you are within me. You made me in your own light, and left a part of you within me. Just as you did with everyone else. And here again, i thank you for helping me find you. I feel secure. I feel serene.
i feel your presence
i feel your absence
i feel your movements
i feel your fragments
i suffer from your judgements
and from your vengeance
but never has it once
decreased my reverence
i applaud your brilliance
your silent fragrance
i commend thy's presence
eternal magnificence.
