How many times have i missed a class or sumthng after sleeping in her room ... I dnt want to sleep der nemore ... Coz she will never wake me up...almost lost my job 2 day... Didnt finish my hw .. Nd i hate my life2 day

well i mean the thing is...i am not cool with her selecting sumone over me ....lol....thats it...

after all this drama and tragedy...i am trying to rediscover myself....
i want to be what i was to her....i want to be the stable force in her life....
my worries my pains my sorrows my wants seem insignificant in front of my desire to be that person for her..i am really really trying to stop complaining...i just want her happy...

the entire yuvraj story....and dinner time with anuraag has kind of brought me down again....
add to the fact that...while sleeping that night she said that she misses him....its nt that she jus misses him...its more the way she said that...the passion and intensity at that moment...it is tough to take....sumtime i jus wonder....whether anuraag will pull off a vikram...who knws this summer....they both talk...and anuraag says it again...and pravi will be like...this is exactly what i was missing...to hell with vikram...

i knw the chances of that happening are highly unlikely...pravi tries her best to make me feel secure...but i am just an insecure unfortunate bastard lol.....i doubt my life way too much...

as of yesterday...i was just not satisfied with this relationship....right now..i am not satisfied with you....
your past demons keep surfacing every now and then...and it affects me..

i am alone pravi....i feel so lonely....bt i believe in you....if you can mess up with them...you can also make things better with me...

ders no use crying pravi....i knw ur story...i know your mental fight....it takes courage to deal with what you have gone through...now help me out here