The ultimate wannabe

Everything about my life is about being a wannabe. No, like, seriously, browser dude, i am a very big wannabe.
Atleast  externally.
Its just me pretending to be someone. The art of fitting in. Blending in. That's the trick to everything i believe in right..lol
i mean if i look within me then yes, that's some serious individuality. That's all me. Shaped myself so perfectly to be a sociopath or a playboy with such desperate ease. See the word desperate. That's such a huge part of it. Switching between personalities with ease.
I know i stretch it too far. Its getting to tiring, but i can't even help it.
Browser dude, believe me when i say this. In my last relationship i slapped my princess a total of five times. And trust me, please do, just once was impulsive anger.  The other four times was the sociopath pretending to be a maniac lover. I mean, i tell you dude, the brain told the hand, dude no, but the personality took over and was like, Fuck you brain.
What i mean is, i don't have anger issues.
I have personality issues.
Never did i actually get angry. But the maniac personality was like, lets have fun.
You see the innate need to Fuck everything up. Its like in every major life situation, i try to come out on top getting like i achieved something. And that's why when things look to be fine, a part of me fucks it up, just to give every other part a challenge to rise out and fix it, so that it recoats the false sense of accomplishment i have of myself.